一切顺其自然

好久好久好久没回来这小小的空间了...
有些东西憋了很久...想回来这发泄一下...
整整一个月多了...还是一样...
我也不晓得为什么...
开始厌倦那些疑问句...
越来越不喜欢对着手机...
只要电话一响...自然而然的它夺走了我脸上的笑容...
真的不懂为什么...
开始觉得有点儿压力了...
感觉开始觉得有点儿不一样...
最近更让我觉得不安...
昨晚竟然被这事弄得难以入眠...
不知道该怎么说...
对不起...

在家我会觉得自在得多...很轻松...
因为我什么都不用想...
一切顺其自然...简简单单...
很想大哭一场~~~

**nurses**

If the people around you are nurse.

If only your girl friend/wife is a nurse.

During her working time cannot answer your call.. Please don’t blame her. If she lost her concentration maybe will give wrong medication or else adding wrong doses. Because she is dealing with LIFE..

If she is too busy with her work until cannot reply your message..Please don’t blame her. She might be giving the patient medical advice or receiving patient who was admitted.

When she is tired, do not quarrel with her. Her brain has been in the hospital the day stretched tightly. Perhaps she even stood a dozen hours of operation.

When she feel stress please don’t be countable because she need to pay attention in her work every day in every detail of data analysis and then the summary. In the meanwhile if she faced the problem during analysis and the only person that she can release the stress is you…

If only your girl friend/wife is a nurse

Please lean your shoulder for her..

When she cry please comfort her gently because she is facing a lot of life to death and experience a lot the horrible tragedy in the hospital..

She is not the type of cool girl and wont cry. Not because she has no feeling at all but because in her work she need to be calm and cool so that her work can run smoothly..

More dignity to the deceased .So she must be calm.

Only when she is facing you and she cry because you are the one that she feel comfortable with and someone to hold on.

When you fall sick and she could not always by your side. Please don’t blame her.. Actually she really care about you! But in the hospital there are more patients waiting for her to look after them because they are putting on their hope in her.. Whenever she has time she will be with you and looks after you:)

If only your girl friend/wife is a nurse

Please point your mind spacious

If she cannot make it for any holiday please dont put on the blame on her..Everyone can holiday but a “LIFE” cannot take any break.it can lost any second.

She just want to make her part as a nurse so that everyone including the sick people can enjoy their holiday too if they get well. Be honest, she also really hope that she can go holiday with you too..Really..:)

You finish work but she need to go to work like wise you work but she off. Please don’t complain about it. In fact, she most wanted to spend her time with you:) She sacrifice her free time to see you although she feel tired but you cant even realize about it.

Even when you work. In order not to disturb you. She secretly looks at you near the corner while you cannot see her Then send a text message or phone call to tell you she loves you. Today you are looking great" Dear ..you’d lost your weight. Must eat properly okay? Please forgive me for not taking care of you”

If only your girl friend/wife is a nurse

Please be maturely understand her.

Please try to understand her. Try to forgive her. Try not to blame her.

She even been scolded by the patients. Been rejected by the visitor. Looking at variety faces whereby it can affect the mood of a day. Please stand on her side and understand her.. Actually she really need to balance herself everyday and it is not easy.

She cannot let her mood affect her work so she need to be patient but just sometimes it is overloading for her and she need to release it out.So the only thing she can do is realeasing in you. Please forgive her. She does because she trust in you and you are the one that can make her return to the normal place/mood.

If only your girl friend/wife is a nurse

Please pamper her a little more

Don’t dislike her rough hand, please sincerely care about her. Actually she is not that well too. Hard work and stress had taken away her blooming skin.

Do not think she is maintaining her blooming period. In fact, she was suffered psychological and physical pressure at work.

Working for long hours and intense feelings of anxiety. So she is the most easier people who can get sick.

Don’t be exclaim that she no long delicate her rosy skin. Please use your heart to love her . Long term doing night shift had made her routine in life difficult especially abnormal in her menstrual cycles.

Whenever she back from night shift, have you look carefully to her face?

Pale lips, face also look pale and especially during her menstrual, don’t you feel bad?

Don’t laugh at her panda eyes. In fact, she feel pain in heart when she looks at herself.

She cant even close her eyes during night shift while doctor just sleep there.

Look at her emaciated look..If you really love her please treat her nicely and appreciate her:) please hold her hand tightly.

Try to learn to understand, to love, to care like what she does to you and sick people:


**copy from Gloryn Anak Goh...Thanks a lot :D

难忘的suprise

上个星期六日...
除了忙着duty n flag day之外...
还一直想着怎样才能给你惊喜...
提早帮你庆生才不会让你起疑心...
假装生气是不要让你有机会去想我们在你背后的一举一动...
当中有蛮多的破绽...
电话上...
路途中碰见你...
差点被你拆穿...
还好你当时心情不好，没想太多...
成功了...我们成功了...
谢谢大家的合作与祝福...
我真的很开心...
你跟我说...你很感动也很开心...
那感觉无法形容...
很多事情就在这一天发生...
这将会是你最难忘...也是我最难忘的一天...
我会永远记得这一天...

也要恭喜edmond啦...
恭喜恭喜...
haha

恭喜恭喜!!!

恭喜恭喜...
congratulation to those who get promoted...
昨天突然看到你们的record多了一样东西...
真的是吓到咯...
很替你们高兴咯...
至于那些没拿到的...不必伤心和灰心...
可能是因为你们没参与nco course...
其实tuan和madam有一直在观察你们的表现的咯...
有些没拿到的...tuan和madam也有一直跟我提起你们啊...
2010还没过...你们还是有机会...
不然就明年再来咯...
加油加油...

永远记得...

该忙的终于都忙完了...
这一次的camp算是蛮成功的...
中间虽然是有点kelam kabut...
但都可以接受啦...
收拾休息一下,大约接近七点才到家...
当晚,我们就去ks庆功...
大家都很开心...除了开心...也很累...
看他们的眼睛越关越小...
也开始红了...可是他们都还能继续的开玩笑...
他们都问我的感想...有没有很开心...
当时的我,开心真的是没有...没有什么特别的感觉...

第二天一早就去考advance first aid...
什么都没读...练习都没有就上考场...
去的时候,书是开着...我却是闭上眼睛...快睡着了...
practical part虽然有些做得不完整...
但我相信我一定能过...因为考官都很好...
至于theory part...有点担心...
不可错超过十题...我也不懂我会不会错超过十题...
原本考完practical很开心的...
突然觉得很轻松...
on the way回家的时候确一直想着theory...
就开始一直很担心会fail...
如果fail, sir and madam一定很失望的...

考完回家,kingston就帮我约人出来喝茶...
觉得很不舍得...时间过得真快...
我们在old town有说有笑...还在tesco里面绕了一圈...
从头笑到尾...没停过...
名字就快进blacklist了...
他们还说我变了很多...
老实说...因为你们才让我改变那么多...
这两天,上课上到一半都会想起我们一起玩的时候...
一起疯的时候...telematch的时候...
真的很开心...上课的时候一直偷笑...
觉得自己很傻...
河里的水真的很清洁啊...
我脸上的豆豆都出来了...

谢谢你们...明年再来...
让我有这么多难忘的回忆...

意外吧....

很意外...你会跟我说那番话...
你会对我坦白...
一样的...你也觉得很意外...
我会跟你说那番话...
我也对你坦白...
不知从几时开始,我们就猜想对方在想些什么...
而且都猜中了...
开心...我当然开心...
还记得我曾经跟你说过什么吗...
你们两个跟我说话,会让我觉得很窝心...很感动..
不过...
我不习惯一点小事就要靠别人帮我完成...
不习惯跟人家分享心事...
不习惯被疼...
不习惯撒娇...
我没在ging...
真的不习惯...
我也不懂为什么...
那也不是我的专长...

或许........

还不是时候...

主见,勇气,自信!!! 你们去了哪里...

星期五早上收到通知营地出了点问题...
原本想好好的休息一天,星期六才处理area camp的事情...
接近傍晚的时候石头和我就决定当晚开会...
尽快处理好目前的问题...
不好意思带给你们那么多的不便...
原本想这点小事我能应付得来...

星期六早上,活动小组开了小会议...
开会之后,石头,edmond和我边聊天边看学弟妹操步...
其实我一直以来都有这问题...
之前有过一次的教训...
我几乎都快忘了...
我还以为你们都没发现到...
最后还是被看穿了...
这就是说我真的很有问题...

我最缺乏的就是勇气和自信...
有时候我真的很狠我自己...
可能修说的没错...他说什么我都认为是对的...
在他面前我的自信心会降得很低很低...
很多事情似乎没问过他的意见我就不能再继续...
连开会我都不懂该怎么开...
说几句话之后都会问过他对不对,之后要说什么...
即使之前做还了准备...开会的时候脑袋似乎一片空白...

这几天我都在不听的跟我妹说我只是挂名的主席...
他比较像是主席...
我不懂从一开始到现在我做过了什么主席该做的...
星期六开会的时候,tuan他们进来后第一个就问我营地怎么样...
tuan才说没几句...我开始觉得我做错了很多东西...
对不起...害你们白开心一场...
看他们三人的眼神,你们的语气...开始质疑我的能力...
我已不及格了...不晓得这一次的生活营会不会被我搞砸...
我的办事能力很差吧...
对不起...让你们失望了...

我开始习惯一直依赖着他了...
我真的很希望我能自己去处理这些事情...
我总不能一直要你们帮我善后吧...
这样我会觉得很内疚...
那天看到edmond和石头都那么累...
我真的感到很内疚...

请让我自己处理吧...
给我一次机会...
我是主席...不想做个让自己觉得是挂名的主席!!!